It is night and I am surrounded :)

I am wide awake unable to sleep. I have not yet figured out how to just shut my eyes and go to sleep. It has been difficult to sleep the last few days. It feels like I can't sleep when I am supposed to.



It is10:22 p.m. and I am surrounded by my daughters. well if you want to get technical my step daughters (3), but I consider them more than that. Well now the boys are in here..lol..two on the floor three on the bed..They are so cute! I think our room is the hang out tonight..lol

They all want to play on my laptop.


It is so funny to watch them clammier around me like there is no other room on the bed besides right on top of me..lol.. I don't mind.





Just talked to my Hubby..I Love hearing his voice. Especially when he says "I Love You Beautiful" I Love him sooo much.








All these kidos will keep me busy while the hubby is away. It is so weird still not to have him here joking around with them.




Tristan and Lil' Brian are playing games now.. You can't distract those boys for anything while they are playing games. The Boys especially miss Brian already. They already asked when he is coming back.









Family is everything, without them where would any of us be.





Do not bring your past in your future, but make it a part of who you become.




As the days go by it will be a strange thing not to have my husband by my side.





Love is a strange thing. It can make you so happy, then out of no where make you so sad.











I want his arms around me right now. ( even though he would probably be playing call of duty right now..lol)


I look ahead to all of our futures and see a great life, maybe not your ordinary or normal life but Man is it going to be a hell of a ride.

She will be patient and she will be waiting for the day he will return and she can once again be in his arms.