Case of the Monays

Today was a Monday. Yes a Monday. People usually say "I have the case of the Mondays"
Today was a horrible day.
Each moment that I had for some reason I could not stop thinking about him. He seems not him self.

I know is he not always going to be Mr. perky or Mr. perfect. I understand he is tired.

I guess I just needed to smile today and I thought if I talked to him he could make me smile. But alas, I could not even get him to smile.

It is moments like that, that make me wonder if we can make it through this. I don't know maybe I am just tired, I really haven't slept in the last couple days and maybe only eaten twice.

It just has been one of those days. I have so much on my mind on top of worrying about my Husband being deployed.

I don't want to talk to him about it because I feel like he has enough to worry about, why burden him with my issues.

He says he is not worried about me, because he knows I am strong and I can handle it. But to be honest I think he does worry. I think he worries that it will overwhelm me.

This is how I see it. Life is always going to a bumpy road. If someone says it is always smooth, they are retarded and frankly not honest with themselves.

I am not saying there are no good times, I Crazy Wonderful Great Times. I am just saying If you can't face the bumpy, Rough, kick you in the Ass bumpy roads you will never be fully happy or you will not fully be in reality .

But I would rather Be on this road with my Hubby than anyone else. Because at the end of the day we may have those crazy, messed up, pissed off days, but man do I love the Make up time. And I love the Crazy Wonderful Great Times and I would not change any of it for the world.


I Love my family with everything I have in me. They give me strength I never knew I had. That is how I know I will get through this. I have my moments that I honestly don't know but then I look at our kids and my Hubby and I know that we can make it through anything.

I know I am babbling I guess I do that a lot. Especially when I have so much on my mind.

I to end this I will just say I Love My Family and Ultimately I know we will get through this deployment.

We Miss My Hubby like crazy, but we know he is doing what has to.

He is My Always and My Forever