Love Letter

To My Love,

Today was the longest day. Everything seemed to remind me of you. Of the dorky things you would do down to the things you would say. Even the foot in the mouth things.

I was so happy when we were IMing. I am sorry you are stuck at the airport. But I would rather you be safe in the airport than on a plane with a half broken wing.

You are so wonderful to me. I know this time apart is going to be hard for both of us. The last time you were deployed we were still getting to know each other.

Now we know one another inside and out. Which is a good thing, well mostly a good thing..lol.

I am laying in bed right now wishing you were here next to me, even though I know right about now, (especially on a Saturday) you would be playing Call of Duty right about now yelling at the T.V.

I miss you crawling it bed late after video games and holding me in your arms.

This is the first of many weekends that I will spend without your arms around me.

When I saw you on the web cam. I was so happy to see your face. Happy to see actual reactions.

I think I needed that. I know that I will not be able to talk to you every day, but I enjoy the time and will enjoy the time I do get to talk to you.

We have had many trials and tribulations, but we have seen right past them.

We will get through anything as long as we are together.

I will Love You Always and Forever

Remember always that you have the kids and I her waiting for you.We Miss you like crazy!

I am so proud to be your wife and so happy to be your wife.

Part of my cleaning was organizing our closet . I was putting our hats and shoes together and all I could think was I miss my Love. I won't see him where any of these hats, shoes, or clothes for a long time. I won't be able to smell your cologne on you.

I started crying. I am crying right now just writing about it.

now I am thinking about when you would hold me when I was crying and try to make me laugh or make me feel better.

I Love You So Much!

Remember You are and Always be My Always and Forever

So I end this letter with the My Love, with the Heart that will Always be Yours

I Love you Always and Forever

Celeste or like you call me Your Beautiful

first weekend

It is the first weekend without My Love. So far so good.

All the kiddos helped with the cleaning, The entire house is clean!

They are all outside playing now.

Now there is me left with my thoughts.

The thoughts that I avoid.

I pray to GOD that I will be able to get through this. I am so nervous and scared.

I will be taking care of 5 children all by myself.

Yes, yes I know that I am with them by myself practically all day when he is at work, but the fact is he always came home at the end of the work day.

You know what it is time to pick myself up and get out of these house clothes and get dressed. I can not keep myself like this the entire time he is gone.

I Love my family and the best thing I can do for them right now is keep moving.

keep moving forward. Keep myself busy.

Maybe the time will pass by fast. Hopefully it will.

I am supposed to start college next fall. I am so excited! To be able to finish college and start my career is something I have been wanting to do.

Even while writing this thing. In what seems like random thoughts. I still think of him. I am trying to think about or talk about something else to distract myself, but I am unable to do so.

I did not sleep last night. It is getting more and more difficult to sleep, but apparently neither could he. He said he was in and out of sleep all night.

Is it possible him and I are that connected?

Well it is time to end this entry and get moving'.

I Love my Husband and I Love all Our Kiddos. to put it directly I LOVE MY FAMILY!